Last Sunday evening, I was returning to our compound by motorbike from an evening with some other missionary friends. I was so frustrated and stirred up inside because back at the compound was a little boy who was not eating. Baby Isaiah had been refusing food for nearly 2 and a half weeks at that point. He was losing weight and growing weaker, and I had run out of ideas. I did not know what to do, and I was growing so desperate in my spirit.

As the motorbike tires threaded back and forth over the uneven path, I cried out to God, “Please, God! Just speak to me!”

I wasn’t expecting what I heard next.

“Isaiah is a symbol of my Church who has lost her appetite for Me. She refuses true food and drink, and although she thinks she knows what she needs, she pursues things that don’t satisfy her. Her hunger has been stolen from her, and she cannot see that she is wasting away to nothing. I continue to put food before her – I have prepared feasts for her to eat – but she refuses them. I bring the food to her mouth, and she shakes her head, clenches her teeth, and looks away. With each refusal, she provokes me to abandon my efforts to nourish her.”

My heart was so grieved. Is that really what God sees in His Church today?
I began to cry out in repentance for the times when God has offered a feast to me, and I have refused. I acknowledged my ignorance of my own hunger and pleaded that He never stop bringing the food to my mouth. “I want everything You have for me, Father!” I cried, and I began to intercede for the Church.

The Scripture is full of admonitions to feast on the Lord. The prophet Isaiah wrote (in chapter 55) that people spent their money to buy food and drink that was not true food and drink – things that did not satisfy. Then, he called the people to come buy freely the best food – to delight in the richest of fare. The prophet called us to come be sustained and filled by God!

When Jesus taught his disciples to pray, “Give us this day our daily bread,” I’m sure He was speaking of physical bread – but, I think He also spoke of spiritual bread. What did Jesus call Himself? The Bread of Life. The Scriptures tell us that many fell away and were offended when Jesus said that unless we eat of His flesh and drink of His blood we can have no part in Him. Jesus is our daily bread – which means He has something fresh from Himself for us each new day!

The Church has too long found her satisfaction in the things that do not truly satisfy. She fills herself with rubbish and thinks herself healthy and well, while God sees that she is wasting away – malnourished – skeletal – pathetic. He cries out to us, “COME! Eat of Me! Stop filling yourself with what will does not satisfy! Find your health, satisfaction, and fullness in Me! I have a feast for you today! Won’t you eat?”

I praise God that little Isaiah’s appetite has begun to return. He is eating again when we put food before him. Let’s do the same, Church. Let’s feast daily of what God has freely offered us. Go to Jesus today, and ask Him what He has for you today. Receive directly from Him. Feast of Him.

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About Jennie Joy

I'm a lover and truth-seeker. This blog is a place for me to share my thoughts, struggles, and sincere searchings as I get to know God and welcome the reality of His kingdom in and through me.

5 responses »

  1. Anonymous says:

    Jennie- thanks for sharing this. It was so beautiful and challenging. I love how Jesus uses things in our everyday life to teach us powerful lessons. He is faithful and I pray the Church will see what it is eating for the saying goes something like you look like what you eat. Much love and blessings 🙂 Rachael

  2. Anonymous says:

    Thanks for sharing this with me, Jennie. I have not been able to get it out of my head since you posted it. The images are so, so powerful. And so devastatingly true. As I read those words that God spoke to you, tears filled my eyes. The church is wasting away and many do not even notice. How often do I turn from the feast in front of me that He so badly wants me to eat? Thanks again. Sending you a big hug. 🙂 ❤ Alissa K.

  3. Anonymous says:

    Thanks so much for posting this! It really opens my eyes to what I tend to do often. Run myself down with a busy lifestyle and then ask the Lord to replenish me. I forget that he wants to feed me daily!Thanks so much for sharing!!! Cant wait to read more of your blogs!Rocio (Matt's girlfriend)

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